Voids World

It was about 4:00am of Sat that really shocked me. I was backstabbed, betrayed, deceived, or any word you could possibly think of. I lost someone to a friend by an unfair and unjust fight. If you’re saying I can’t control someone’s emotion I know that. They became a couple.

 But the thing is the guy that betrayed me was the one who gave me the advice to continue courting her when I was about to give-up and actually listen to his advice and followed it knowing that he is my old friend. I just wish that he just let me stop if he was going for the same girl.

Maybe It was wrong for me to love someone so much even the feeling is not mutual, or trusting them too much. I’m not mad at them, I’m just mad at the thing they did. Now im just waiting for the guy to say sorry and I will forgive him but if he cant do it, His really not the man enough to face his actions.

And for the girl, sorry for being cold or anything I just want to be away from you and let me give time to heal this wound. All i can do is pray for their happiness and good luck

And I want to thank Moneth for giving a good time at ATC, Karen for the support, Rikki for the drinks haha and advice.

Since I came to Manila. I always wanted to go back to being an active taekwondo competition competitor. But now it seems that destiny wont let me or i wont let myself, I really miss the action inside the ring. And yes every tournament I'm still inside the ring but the difference is I'm the one officiating.Maybe a big MAYBE i can play in the  TBB/TBS/PTC tournament. But first i have to prepare and get rid of this sickness that's been pulling me down for 2 weeks or more (dry cough) hahah

if some people wants to know about my love-life it still ZERO.. but yes I'm in lust I mean in LOVE (just joking with the lust thing).but we're still just friends. hahhahah (see poster and print ads for details)

Life's a little easier from the time i started on standing on my own two feet.
It was really hard during the first 3 months but heck I manage to survive.

Sad to say that my BRO's in TBB is no longer the people i know during competition. It was better before when we we're junior batch hahaha.. I really don't know what happened to the fire, to their passion, to the fighting spirit, for the sport. I am really disappointed on what I'm seeing today but i hope we still do good.

To my SIS.. still as before. *bows to the floor* they did a better job on sticking together than us.

To all

Happy Birthday... to all the march celebrants

and especially to my tbb bro and sis; Karla Jane Alava, Allen Cruz-Hererra, Rikki James Cruz-Herrera, Marifi Gadit... and Trixia Lagunzad

if i miss anyone.. sorry nalang hahaha

I decided yesterday that i would not be selfish and accept the fact that WE ARE JUST FRIENDS and NOTHING MORE. Cause i wanted to make myself feel a little less stupid so i gave up.
If I would let myself hope for something that might not even happen (ang tanga ko na sobra nun di pa ko makaintindi)

but because of my i cant handle situation pretty good, (her reasons di ko alam) sabi ko lang i wanted to make things a little less.
i thought that she would like it na wala nang mangugulo sa kanya
pero iba ang she reaction nya, so we ended fighting.

hay nako...

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